you'll never see the courage I know...

never tell

never tell

Sunday, April 27, 2008

not doing so good in this heat...

I am looking for a new place to live. I can't take another summer here hot, sweating and misrable!!!

The heat even caused me to get a headache. Makes me sleepy, sluggish and totally unproductive!

Go away you cocki sun, I hate you!

Friday, April 25, 2008

I descend

I descend into the land of brambles, where heavy vines cling to me.
So set sail that sail boat into the sea and call it a girl.
Beneathe the blue, beneathe the green, your'll never find me.

Most of the time I am my own best friend, on days like these I am a stranger to myself.

I descend into the earth, the wet moss, into the boundless boundless ocean waves.

You see, I prefer the moss, I prefer the trees. I prefer the company of me.

Alone. Alone. Alone, but never lonely.

I've noticed something missing from Whole Foods today...

Plastic bags!

...and I'm loving it!

I'm sooo glad they fully eliminated those horrific things!
It can take more than 1,000 years for a plastic bag to break down in a landfill. I just worry about all the trees being cut down for all the paper bags now! Yes, I am quite the worry-wart! I wish they would eliminate paper bags as well to force people to BYOB (bring your own bag).

I also wish that ALL supermarkets & shops would do this! They have no idea what an impact they would make on our little blue ball.

-I'm just full of wish!

"But as it came down near, so did a weary tear, I thought it was a bird but it was just a paper bag!"

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

HAPPY EARTH DAY! for those who care...

It's Earth day, one of my very favourite day's of the year to celebrate besides Halloween & St. Patrick's Day.

So, it is Earth Day and I'm the only one who cares anyways. (Which is horrific to say the least).
So why bother writing a blog of how you can (and should) do your part, if you're "too busy" to read it. So I'm not going to waste my time. It makes me laugh when people say they don't have time to help save the very thing their living on. Their stupid, they just don't get it do they. If the planet all goes to hell, what's the point to that fucking job, schooling, cars, etc. That you're so busy maintaining?

You should have a healthy balance of giving and taking. Help in small ways everyday and it will add up. Trust me.

I wish everyone would understand this.

Well. I'm going to have a good day on this beautiful day, perfect weather-thank you Mother Earth. I'm going to go take a nice walk and enjoy my surroundings while I can! Just know that I've done my part and I continue to everyday, not on just this one day a year.

Thanks for all you have given us.
Nature is my best friend. Never let's me down. I promise to be delicate with you.

...And I apologize for those who aren't. :o(

Monday, April 21, 2008


Be careful what you wish for because now everybody is talking to you at the gym.
Wasting my time!!!

-and that fucking annoying guy that keeps getting on the machine that's right next to you even tho. the rest of the gym is empty.
I'm about to tell the mother fucker what he can do!

Why do all these fucking people get on my last fucking nerve? They irritate me to no end!!!

Along w/ this crappy ass music & videos. Makes me wanna .....

ahhh sigh

Been really talking in my sleep lately. For the last 2 weeks. Waking myself up, therfore not getting proper sleep.

I was tired all weekend long and felt like shit. On Sunday felt like disappearing somewhere in the cold Alaska mountains. Alone.

Just me and the mountian goats surrounded by (melting) glaciers.

How sad. All of it.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Mommy misses your presence...

mommy misses you already my dearest Bonnie, now ur w/ Clyde. RIP little one. Don't worry, I'll take care of Clyde Jr.

Thank you for the happiness you gave me for 9 years!!

I miss you sooooo much! xo

Good thing mommy took some great pictures of you last week!

-sorry if...

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

The Biggest Loser (and no I'm not talking about you) ;o)

I'm counting on Ali to win.

I actually like all 3 of the remaining peeps, but I want Ali to win.

P.s. I sure wish Bob wasn't gay!
Damn' it!

Update 10:15pm: Ali did infact win! YES! I was hoping all along! First time for a girl too. I'm loving it!

Monday, April 14, 2008


This shit is so scripted and lame.

Heidi is soooo ugly and boring to look at. Spencer has lock jaw, talks like a robot and not a cool one. Robots are usually cool & sexy, but he's so infantile & retarded. They are the most stiff and boring couple ever. They are full of shit too, their not "together"- yeah that's why TMZ always catch the untalented dorks out & about together.

Audrina is trippin' hanging out w/ Heidi-ho. Those piccys of her were pretty hot, I must admit, but there's just something weird about her face-like drooping eyes or something?

Have you seen Heidi's clothing line? What a hot mess. Very plain and boring like herself! Very common. Like herself. LOL.

Whitney's boss is a bitch. But I like her bluntness. ;o)

You could never totally be yourself when camera's are on you, you just can't. Just sayin'...
Another thing that makes me sick-they all share and date all the same guys, jason-Brody and whoever
else, like their the only guys in town? So, I guess they all have the same STD's- and I mean how cool is that?

-and who are those 2 assholes doing the commentary @ the end?
"Check us out at the after party lounge online". Oh shut up already w/ the dogface of your's lady & that idiot w/ the god forsaken thick V-neck sweaters and fake ass glasses. Come on, we all know you don't have a perscription for those! Haha. Lol. HAaaaaaa!
Their so random. Where did they find these people?

Ok...ok... I know, I can switch the channel-but I don't dare!

Can't wait to see what happens next week!!! Looks like justin-bobby makes a come back. Lol.


Wednesday, April 2, 2008

A Train Wreck on a Train Ride

I took these photos to remind me of the day I didn't want to exist anymore.

...BUT, on this day I also eliminated one way I am not going out.
(and that should count for something)